Saturday, July 27, 2013

A Market Stand

This morning at market, an interesting exchange took place between a gentleman buying produce with food stamps, the lady working behind the produce stand, my daughter and I, who were also buying produce.

The gentleman, who appeared to be Middle Eastern and who did not speak English very well, had a list of the items that were approved for purchase with food stamps. It seemed the only fruit available was cantaloupe, as apparently, the food stamp approved items had to be locally grown. The man wanted some grapes—they were right in front of him and were, indeed, beautiful. No, he was told, you can’t buy those. As the young lady turned to get the items he had bought, I said to him,

Would you like some of those grapes? I’ll buy some for you.

He seemed to understand and nodded and pointed to the bags of white grapes.

When the lady who was helping April and I returned I said,

I want to buy a bag of those grapes for this gentleman.

No, we don’t allow that, she said.

I was sort of stunned.

Don’t allow…but I want to buy them.

Meanwhile the gentleman collected his bags and turned and walked away.

We don’t want our customers to feel sympathy and buy things like that.

But I do feel sympathy; I feel compassion for him.

She shook her head and went to get the strawberries and blueberries I had requested. When she returned, she said,

You don’t know the whole story.

I just wanted to buy him some grapes.

I could see that April was visibly quite upset. We paid for our produce and walked away. As we stepped outside I reached over and touched April and said

Sweetie

She immediately started crying.  With tears pouring down her cheeks, on the cobbled street outside the big market doors, my daughter wept for the sins of God’s people. It’s hard to actually capture with words, the anguish and anger that April expressed.

Why are people like that? They’re so careful to wear their little skirts* and act so righteous, and then be so mean. What does it matter what the whole story was.

We continued talking on our drive to Costco, as we walked through the store, and as we drove home. And here’s what I believe.

I believe I am so blessed, as to be given children whose hearts are toward the poor. I believe that both compassion and righteous anger are gifts from God, which as they mature, will bring glory back to Him. I believe that Christianity as we know it and see it practiced around us, has lost its way. Had Jesus been standing beside us at that produce stand in market, I believe the lady behind the stand would have turned him away.

I was reminded of the trip I took with my elderly parents to Brooklyn, to visit the beautiful and inspiring Brooklyn Tabernacle and hear the choir sing. And how on that trip home, passengers on the bus were making harsh and unkind judgments of people who were demonstrating in the park. And how in the darkness inside the bus, I wept. Tears of anger then conviction as Spirit moved in my heart, reminding me of the love of God for all people, even those arrogant smug elderly ladies.

As April prepared to leave for work, I wondered with her, whether maybe God would bring our conversation back to the produce lady’s mind later today. And maybe, just maybe, she’ll wonder if there’s another way. 

*The stand is owned by a conservative Christian family; all the female employees wear skirts--no jeans or shorts.


Saturday, July 6, 2013

A Prayer

Strengthen for service, Lord, the hands that have taken holy things; may the ears which have heard your word be deaf to clamour and dispute; may the tongues which have sung your praise be free from deceit; may the eyes which have seen the tokens of your love shine with the light of hope; and may the bodies which have been fed with your body be refreshed with the fullness of your life; glory to you forever. Amen.

- Book of Common Prayer


Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Precipitating Psalm


No poems or prose for quite some time
I think the heat slows down creativity
The air on my porch is so thick with thoughts of rain
You can almost grab a handful
And yet…
Sitting here this morning with my coffee and Crossing to Safety*
I’m conscious of the gentle sound of rain on the leaves
And the joyous sounds of birds who seem to love this clime
I am made to smile at how God’s love breaks thru the humidity and damp
And lays a finger on my uninspired heart and opens it to Him.

Nancy Perkins
7/3/13

*My current read by Wallace Stegner


Thursday, May 16, 2013

Come and Worship



Why do my eyes fill with tears
Why is my mouth drawn upward in a smile
Why do the words of song and psalm tremble on my lips

What draws me to these wooden pews
To sit beneath the stained glass gaze of saints and angels
To rise and sit and rise again repeating ancient prayers

What draws me is the beauty and the calm
The offered sacrament of wafer and of wine
The songs—some old as time; some new as Superstar

The blend of secular and sacred
Into something holy and mysterious
Invitation to a new place filled with the familiar

Oh, Father, thank you for this house
For the peace exchanged with friends and strangers
For the ancient wood doors that open and invite me in
From ordinary time to sit one hour in sacred holy space

Nancy Perkins
5/16/13

Thankful for St James Episcopal Church, where I've worshiped for the past six months.

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Winds of Pentecost


Spirit wind blow
the seeds of new life and possibility
the blossoms of experience and pain

Holy Spirit wind blow
clear away the anger and fear
the broken dreams and heartaches

Spirit wind blow
make space for desire and friendship
bring new growth of love and light

Holy Spirit wind

Nancy Perkins
5/12/13

I watched the wind blow through the trees in my backyard, leaves and flowers flying everywhere. It reminded me of the passing of old, and promise of new.


Wednesday, May 1, 2013

A Psalm to Welcome May


It’s why I get up in the dark
on winter mornings
It’s why I grab my umbrella
and hurry to my car through April rain

This perfect May-first morning
gathers up all the angst of rain and winter
And for this morning anyway
it’s stored beyond the blue and forgotten

For who can be sad on this
 gorgeous May day
or in sadness—who cannot smile
The twitter-pated birds
 the flowering trees
renew and restore all that’s life

I sit on the stoop with coffee and cat
and I smile; even break into song
Alleluia! May Day! Alleluia!

Nancy Perkins
May 1, 2013 

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Here is Love

Here is love, vast as the ocean
Lovingkindness as the flood
When the Prince of Life, our Ransom
Shed for us His precious blood
Who His love will not remember?
Who can cease to sing His praise?
He can never be forgotten
Throughout Heav'n's eternal days

On the mount of crucifixion
Fountains opened deep and wide
Through the floodgates of God's mercy
Flowed a vast a gracious tide
Grace and love, like mighty rivers
Poured incessant from above
And Heav'n's peace and perfect justice
Kissed a guilty world in love

I first heard this song years ago, sung by Eden's Bridge, and remember how it moved me. And now I know why. It embodies everything amazing about God's love and His priceless gift, celebrated at Easter. And it still moves me.

Nancy Perkins
Easter 2013