Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Psalms of Advent

These poems and reflections were written while on a one-day Advent Retreat at none other than the Jesuit Center. A potter was at the center of our day, working on a wheel, make pots, answering questions, and offering inspiration. The day was an offering of Kairos, to whom I am grateful for making the space and opportunity.


 
Advent

The darkest time of year
Poised for awakening
Begging for light




A Psalm of Advent

The darkest time of year.
Cold, dark, gray.
Bare branches line the
paths once green and verdant.
Gray skies hang low
and mist enshrouds.
Waiting.
Waiting.
Waiting…
For the courage of Mary
for the chorus of angels
for bright stars and
full moon.
For God
breaking into His world.
For the love of a baby.
For the Light of the world!


 
Psalm of Advent II

In the darkness
Lurks my sin
My judging eye
My scornful word
My ugliness
My anger.

But thanks be to God
Darkness breaks
Into the eternal
Light of Love
That holds, embraces
Forgives, frees
Advent—coming
Comes in Christ.

All is well
All is well


 
Pottery

Almighty Father hands
strong and tender fingers
reaching deep into my soul—my guts
gently shaping
writing down my poetry
on the inner walls of my heart
and being
only to be read
by Him

Inspired by a story told of a Japanese potter who made magnificent pots and wrote poetry on the inside of the vessels.


 
Psalm of Advent III

Collapsing in the darkness
Stunned, like Mary
Wondering—sometimes frightened
At the Spirit’s growing
Presence in my life.

What is this call to love
To break through mist and darkness
A vessel made of clay
The silt of millions of stories
and floods and storms
Scooped up from the delta
by tender calloused hands
and loved into usefulness
broken and misshapen
then formed again—now stronger
with scars and streaks of blood

A tale of
humility and pain
of strength and courage
and the Father’s touch
Love is born


 
Reflection on Isaiah 25:67

Don’t you long for the feast?
For the lavish food and best wine?
For the laughter and chatter
of all the guests
gathered from around the world?

For God to remove the shroud
that blinds and separates and
divides all into us and them
eating and drinking
from separate bowls?

I weep and moan at the blindness
humbled by my own lack of sight
Am I missing the feast?
Is it now?
Is it here?
You came and You are coming!




Saturday, December 1, 2012

Writer's Retreat - October 2012

HAIKU

Loved
Unconditional love
Father you have won my heart
Extravagant love


Sacred Garden
The scent of boxwoods
Pungent fragrance calls to me
I am on retreat


Son of My Heart
Johnathan my son
Courageous dragon slayer
Firstborn of my heart


Soul Mate
Gift of love to me
So brief our life together
Always in my heart



Writing Exercise

Write a page about a road or a room.

Rabbit Road
I don’t remember how to get to Rabbit Road, but I recall being on it. Dense brush and kudzu vines line one side; open cotton fields on the other. Under the cover of overgrown trees about halfway down the road is a tumbledown shack. Gray warped boards form a tilted porch and holes mark the spots where door and windows hung. Pull off the road and join me, as I push aside briars and vines and approach the house.

This is where my father-in-law grew up. He lives here with his grandmother and uncles. If you look closely you might find old brown bottles, some still whole, that once held the moonshine distilled by his family. We collect a couple of bottles as keepsakes and head back to the car.

Why’s it called rabbit road, Daddy, my son asks.

Because Grandpa and his uncles used to hunt and eat the plentiful rabbits. And, because when the law came looking, they hid away like rabbits.

We continued down the sun-filled country road with images of scurrying bunnies and men in our heads. The road brings us out to the highway.


Write a poem from the previous description:

Rabbit Road
Rural south
Just-picked cotton fields
Pines covered in kudzu
Here lies history
Falling down
Gray shack
Holes for doors and windows
Here’s where grandpa grew up
Brown bottles
Mostly broken
Once held moonshine whiskey
Rabbits thrived
Men survived
In poverty and want
It’s just a road
Rural south
Here lies history

Revise the Poem

Rabbit Road
It’s a narrow country road
Like hundreds of others in the rural south
Rows of cotton to the horizon
And pine trees draped in kudzu
Here lies history
Halfway down the road
Overgrown with vines and time
Remnants of a sharecropper shack
Gaping holes where door and windows hung
Sagging and weathered gray
What was a porch
Now angles toward the ground
Brown and broken glass
Relics of moonshine
To keep food on the table
To dull the constant ache of poverty
Then we’re back on the road
Rabbit Road…
Here lies history.

 

Writing Exercise
(Timed writings without lifting the pen from the paper.)

1. Sometimes I wish…
…I didn’t have so many voices in my head, telling me why I can’t do something or why I should or shouldn’t say something. Sometimes I wish I would just shut up and stop thinking I always have to say something, even to my …


2. I remember…
…my mother’s hands; the veins stood out. I used to trace them with my fingers when I sat beside her in church. Now I have veins like her and she is sitting in a nursing home with her hands folded in her lap—unable to talk, but I still remember her hands and now I see my own hands.

3. Outrageously Creative
Five Unanswerable Questions:
1.     Where do emails go when you hit send and before the recipient receives?
2.     Why does it seem that people of color experience such a disproportionate amount of the world’s pain?
3.     Why do some people die of heart disease—instantly, and some people have life-saving surgery, just in time?
4.     Why do cats seem to be attracted to people who don’t particularly care for animals?
5.     Will I get to travel in heaven?
Four Details That I Noticed From This Day:
1.     Morning coffee
2.     Scent of the boxwoods
3.     Hugging my housemate
4.     Greeting from the gentleman
Five Things For Which I Am Grateful:
1.     Family
2.     Friends
3.     The ocean
4.     God’s unconditional love
5.     Gifts in nature

Select 2 questions, 2 details, and 1 grateful. Write a paragraph.

Where do emails go when you hit send and before the recipient receives it? I pondered this over my morning coffee, and I considered asking the gentleman who greeted me on arrival at the retreat. Instead, I sat in my room and thought about God’s unconditional love and how I hoped that His love would include allowing me to travel in heaven, since it doesn’t seem as if I’ll get to see much of the world in this lifetime. Maybe I’ll be like an email, somewhere between sender and recipient.


 Writing Exercise

Write a thank you to a writer, whose book or writings changed your life.

Sarah Miles, Take this Bread

Dear Sarah,
Several summers ago at the cabin, I read your book, Take This Bread. I want you to know how it changed my life. I have always looked at communion as a sort of closed ritual for the few. Your story not only changed how I view the Lord’s Supper, as a feast open to all, but how I view eating a meal as well. When I sit down to eat with my children, I look at them, and with open eyes, taking in their loveliness, I thank God for the privilege of sharing sustenance with them. When I eat with friends, I look in their eyes and thank God for them and the gift of their friendship. When I watch my 90-year-old mother raise a shaking spoon to her mouth, my heart is filled with love and gratitude for the life she gave me and the meals she so lovingly prepared all those years.

When I finished your book at the cabin, we drug the old picnic table down by the lake to eat our dinner. Wounded and real, we sat down to eat. I could hardly breathe as we blessed our food and ate together.

Thank you for changing this ordinary experience into sacred.

Nancy



Following are several poems that I wrote while at the Writer's Retreat. They were not assignments...just inspired by time and place.

Fall Moment

It’s like a painting with leaves falling
Almost magical
Like a scene from Harry Potter
Beauty that makes me want to draw back
and enter at the same time
I can’t take a picture
because if I leave to get my camera
it won’t be the same when I return
It’s a moment for my memory only


 




I’m Awake!

My shower sucked!
Conserving water…I know
But the fine head
Forced needles
Into my unturned face
First icy then scalding
Torturous acupuncture
Not to mention
The mist that floated
Down toward
My legs and lower regions
How to rinse off
Suds with clouds
Ugh!

Bugs Life

Lady bugs are sort of cute
But in limited numbers
Not in the hordes that are
crawling up and down the
inside of the arch
where I pulled my chair
up to read.
How can I relax
when there’s a whole
community of bugs
doing the work of
bug life
all around me?
Yep. Here comes one
right now
crawling up the arm
of the Adirondack chair
right over my phone.
Relax.
Breathe.
They don’t bite
… do they?